My Why

Why do I work with spirituality? I want to sing like Lady Gaga – I was born this way! About 1,5 year ago, I finally got a title after 25 years of hard work and education – shamana, for something that my inner child thinks that I’ve done since I was born. I remember a strong moment from my childhood, which I wont describe out of respect for everyone involved. But it was a deciding moment. I was not even a year old, and I experienced how otherwise loving, kind people were stealing energy subconsciously from one another. It was obvious to me, I could see it happen. A newborn child was lying next to me, and I built up a field of protection and love around us.

I promised myself in that moment never to steal energy from others. Of course, as I grew up my experiences threw me into emotional turmoil at times, and I have surely played my part in this and similar strange behaviors between human beings. But I always remembered my promise, stood up and walked away, healed and changed.

Now I feel as if I’m finally grounded. My overweight during the last 5 years, due to medical issues (I had to take medicines which cause overweight), has helped so much with this as well as with personal development in general. My medical issues are now over and I’m loosing weight fast. I’ll miss it.

My why? Because the only drive in me is to dedicate my every moment to that promise of my almost 1 year old self, and to flow in freedom with True Love every day. And to create, art and magical moments. And of course, to dance with it all.

Photo: me leading a Cacao Ceremony last year, my first big one as a shamana, about 50-60 participants. So proud, of this and my title, and I allow myself to be so. The word “shamana” means “(a woman) who sees and knows”. A bit grandios, and I definitely don’t know everything, however, it says a lot about what it is.

Creating for the sake of creation itself

About a year ago I started making collages out of words from newspapers, which turn into a sentence. I don’t follow a plan, I make them very quick and then I paint, which I’m terrible at. But nevertheless I do it, using all from acrylic paint to crayons, marker pens and loads of glitter glue.

I even got myself an Insta account for them, with like 11 followers. But neither how many followers there are, nor how it looks is the point for me.

The point is, on the contrary from my other forms of expression, film making, singing, dancing, performance, storytelling and writing poetry, these collages are something I do without any type of feeling of having to create something with high quality. In the other fields, I have experience and kinda feel some pressure that it has to be good. With the collages, I don’t feel this at all. I just make them.

Since I started making them, I really notice that my mood is even better than before (I’m generally a pretty happy person, but this is deeper). I also experience a greater flow in life, as well as in other creative endeavors. So grateful!

And I learned to value the process of simply doing, creating, being in the moment so much more than before. Furthermore, my subconscious is communicating with me on a whole new level. Great life lesson!

All of society must get some loving again

We lack the cohesion which fosters a safer neighborhood,
free from violence against women

Occupy the Present – activist performance nr. 1

About three weeks ago I went for a midnight walk through Stockholm, doing an activist performance that I have wanted to do for a long time. This time without an audience, but the performance was, if I might say so, still delivered with elegance, wit and respect.

I did start with taking the metro to the University. My goal was to deliver letters under the slogan “Occupy the Present”. This slogan is my creation, free to use, but when doing so one has to refer to me in a suitable manner. See more about the concept on my blog: https://spiritualempowerment.blog/2023/07/13/occupy-the-present/

I delivered one letter to the University of Stockholm, with an echo of a question that I have seen researchers talk about for a while – “How does the development of wages for people with a masters degree look like since 2010?”.

I further went to the parliament building, delivering the letter that you can see below. It is a humorous question, with a serious note, hinting towards a new Swedish law, which prohibits public discussions and whistle blowers from revealing national security issues in a way that might damage Swedish interests, as well as the Swedish image abroad. Image. As if we are a logo for a company. There was widespread critique towards the law, but it went through anyway. My question was directed towards who or what institutions are supposed to decide what is damaging?

Furthermore I went to a special street in the same district, to a certain doorway which has no information on who sits in the building. There I ended with finger theater, with me or my generation talking to the Swedish tax authority. The issues varied between questions around the pension payment system to how certain taxes are calculated.

All of the questions will be delivered in a correct and suitable manner via post to the institutions in question by me, with a presentation of the performance attached. I will ask politely to get a response to my concerns, as is the right of any Swedish citizen.

Susan Florries 
Occupy the Present

Turned inside out

With my back against
a wall
I turned to the
left
refused to fall, but
followed goals
that I had set

As they disappeared
behind the horizon
I knew that
into the moment
I had zoom
say
come what may
I will follow, go this way

Had to turn
inside
and discovered
a stride
a fight that was
the way
to get out
no point to
shout at it
just go
with it
and
allow
compassion to take
me through it

this time
mainly for me
letting my feelings
run free
however
with a strong
composure

It was not
an issue for
the outside world
I had no
need to be heard
on what was
really going on

I felt strong
and knew where
I belonged
– with me

So I allowed myself
to be
a picture within
a frame
with no shame
refusing to play
any game
knowing that this time
literally nothing would
stay the same
except for a
dedication
to the
incantation

let love be
my guide

from this I
will never hide

So, turned inside out
I refused to shout
but allowed myself
to grow a new
skin
from within

Because of this
I didn’t
fall apart
didn’t have
to mend
the pieces
of a broken heart
or nothing of
the sort

I fell short
of a crisis

And now I know what
time it is

To find the
right stage
the awkward but golden
moment to share

So I’m standing here
in front of you
completely changed
brand new